today only ve a lesson at 3pm... later goin to pass kelvin my lappy which is in semi coma state... so wat am i doin here? i oso dunno...

ytd nite while tokin to my bf on e phone, it was a very emotional tok... [story starts from ytd morning when my bf msg mi to say tt he misses mi alot]... it started out fine till i told him wat chik told mi when we were out shoppin ytd... chik told mi tt she n ah wang thks tt my bf is e one for mi, they mean, we r confirmed to b together for e rest of our life... i was glad tt my frends felt e same way s mi... im committed to my bf n so is he... mayb is becos of his age [28] tt makes him a mature man [i like guys who give mi e feelin tt tey can b a family man]... we rarely quarrel... even if we quarrel, we will b ok e next day n we'l b even closer... being in a relationship is abt giving n tking... as i was saying, i told my bf wat chik said n he agreed wif her too... [tis part still ok] den he replied "of cos lah"... i got a feelin tt he ve been tryin to tel mi somethg since e msg i recieved in e morning so i asked him wat he was tryin to say... den he started to laugh! i had a mixed feeling in mi cos i dunno wat was he laughin abt... den he say "i jus wan to tel u tt i love you!" den he started to laugh again! i was at a lost cos i dint know y he was laughin when he said tt... it feel like he was jus kidding, like he was jus playin a fool of mi all this while... den i asked him y is he laughin... he said he was shy to say tt out... wat a relief! den i told him tt when he laughed when sayin those thgs, i tot he was jus kiddin wif mi! [here comes e veri emotional part] he stopped laughin n said, "through out these 17 mths+, i ve reali enjoyed myself wif u... fallin in love wif u even more each day, askin myself y im so lucky to ve a cute dear like you..." my tears jus start to flow... no one ve ever touched mi in this way before... he continued sayin,"sometimes i do feel abit irritated cos u r too active n doin silly thgs n crackin jokes n makin a fool of urself cos i might ve a hard day at work bt thkin abt it, i noe u r tryin to cheer mi up... i ever wondered if u r nt ard to cheer mi up, will my life still b e same? of cos it wont b e same anymore!" my tears jus kept flowin n flowin... he noes tt im cryin cos of my sniffings n tissues sounds... i was speechless... dint know wat to say so he continued wif his sweet words n i finally stopped cryin n told him tt sometimes i will b angry at him cos when i need him to b there for mi, he's nt[eg: when i went to NSC i had to tk blood tests for e first time i was alone n scared, havin to go thru period tummy pain alone wifout anyone to bring mi a heat pad to tk away my pain, blah blah blah...] bt there r loads of good memories of us together than e bad memories... i reali appriciate his love n time for mi all these while... im ready to settle down wif him anyitme... im nt a person who can say e three words easily like other girls n he's award of it... i feel tt if u reali love someone, sayin it all e time makes no point! bt still, i love him...

ok... tt's all for e touchin part! i got to go prepare to go out... tata~~~