Christmas is about a month away. Christmas is like the season for love. But I cant find much love around. Of course I feel love from my bf. So I got my bf's love, family love still ok lah, but one thing is missing... Friend's love. Somehow I feel thatI have lost all of them again overnight. What to do? Friends only call me when they need me otherwise they will disappear to nowhere and call you again when they need you. This is life... My life is now surrounded with my bf only. Just on last sun when we went out, we were toking about our future. I asked him if he has any wish for us. He said "I think you are not prepared to be mrs ong. " I looked at him with my eyes wide open and asked "Why you say so?". He replied "Cos everytime when i talked about getting marry you seems to dont like it or change to another topic." Come on lor! I did not! Even if I did, it is cos i dont want to talk about it and still not able to do it till after July 2006. I will only be 21 years old after July 2006. Still a long time away. Of cos i want to be his Mrs but the only thing that is holding me back is my dad. He wont let me off so early. Dont want to talk about all these things to spoil the Christmas mood. Thk I go sleep already.... tata~~~